Monday, December 31, 2012


It comes as no surprise that 2012 has been all about my darling baby Edward James. A year ago I wasn’t even pregnant, and now my bouncing boy is 2,5 months old. Everything I did this year has been affected by him. If the ultrasound measurements in week 17 were correct, I became pregnant on January 12th, and even though I didn’t find out until late February I felt the effects immediately coming down hard with fatigue before morning sickness kicked in. After that a had a few nice months where I felt fine, and hubs and I travelled to Italy twice, for our last trips together without the responsibility of parenthood. Summer and early fall was pretty tough on me because of the weight and strain on my body, and by the time Edward was finally born on October 15th (9 days late) I was bordering on bedridden. But once he was born everything changed in a sudden, not to mention it was love at first sight when I first saw him.

2012 has without a doubt been the most difficult but most amazing year of my life so far! Since this day last year I’ve made the most amazing little person, and the last months have been insane just watching him learn and evolve. In such a short time he’s become a little boy that smiles and laughs, he’s even starting to grab things intentionally! This year has really been insane!

I’m actually ready for a new year, for once. I can’t wait to watch Edward grow into a little boy, and I hope to grow myself and become a healthier person and sort out my life.

I want to thank everyone that has been reading and following my life and thoughts this year, and I hope to see you all next year. I wish everyone a safe evening, and I hope you have a nice time no matter what you’re upto!


Thursday, December 27, 2012

My christmas

I’m still alive! I thought I would have time to blog after our English christmas celebration in Sandefjord on Tuesday, but I was so knackered it made me angry (I have the shortest temper when I get tired!), and it took me a full day to recover from the two christmases. I loved the food, but unfortunately I didn’t get to experience the English christmas as much as I would like because Edward was so hungry all the time and I had to retire to feed him. I did get to take some part in opening presents, and I had fun opening Edwards vast amounts of gifts. Who knew a baby could need so many toys? He’s everyone’s first grandchild and great grandchild, and he was definetly spoiled rotten by their generosity. I got some fabulous prezzies too, including some amazing Nike sneakers from my mom (can’t wait to really try them out at the gym!) and UGGs from hubs which I’ve been wanting for years but never treated myself to.


These are probably a little more than half the prezzies he got. I didn’t include the clothes he got, and he has still to recieve from both my parents. Could he be more lucky? He can’t really play with most of these yet, but I’m sure he will within a few months. But I do love that we hardly have to buy him any toys before his first birthday! He barely needs clothes until he’s six months either because I’ve been telling people to buy big sizes. Very clever!


I got to wear my new silk shirt from Equipment which I had been lusting over for months! Too bad it makes me look fat, but we’ll change that as soon as I can go back to working out when we get home to Bergen. I bought the Hollywood fashion tape a few weeks before christmas, and it was definetly a god send! I always get that gap between buttons, but the tape took care of it super descreetly.


Last but not least the only picture I took of Edward on christmas eve. I already regret not taking more pictures because I’m afraid I’ll forget everything and especially his first christmas (last christmas all I could think about was wanting a baby for this christmas). I always forget to take pictures in everyday situations, which are the ones that are the most special in hindsight. I try to get hubs to do it, but he forgets it as well. Hopefully family members have more pictures, and hopefully I’ll never forget how happy he was this first christmas, and how happy everyone were to see him!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry christmas!

I just wanted to wish you all a merry christmas before going to bed on christmas eve, which is the day we celebrate in Norway. We're getting up early tomorrow and heading to Sandefjord to celebrate a traditional English christmas.

I'm exhausted after a wonderful celebration tonight, which I will tell you about tomorrow, and even show you some of my prezzies!

Good night everyone, have some wonderful holiday dreams won't you?

Monday, December 24, 2012

Tiny christmas haul

It’s finally christmas eve! It feels like I’ve been waiting for this day for ages, but also that December has flown by. We’re still in our hotel room getting ready to head out to my aunt where we celebarte christmas with my moms family. I’ve actually managed to go shopping today, and picked up a few beauty items it’s difficult to find back home. I thought there would be loads of people out, but I actually got the whole beauty department at Steen & Strøm Magasin to myself, lovely!


I picked up Armani Eyes to Kill mascara and Bobbi Brown Long Wear Gel Liner which are both HG products for me. Since it was christmas eve after all I decided to treat myself to a Bobbi Brown Illuminating Bronzer in Aruba. I just love getting new make-up!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Date Night

Today Edward had a babysitter for the first time, and hubs and I got a long needed date night alone. My dear mom was so excited to have her first and only grandchild to herself for a few hours, and she was a great sitter! He was so calm when we came home, and I think he had a good time too.

Hubs and I went to Hard Rock Cafe, which does sound kind of like a tacky place to go for good food, but it’s one of our favorites. Who can say no to music, great food and delicious cocktails? I’m at a place when I’m trying to drink very little alcohol, but when I get the chance for a killer cocktail once in a while I’ll take it! We even shared a dessert, even though we’re on a diet. Worth it!

Time did fly by, and it was just like before Edward was born. I never get sick of having conversations with him, and luckily I never get sick of him! Afterwards we went window shopping at Louis Vuitton, and trust me I’ve found lots of beautiful things I’m asking Santa for next christmas!


Can you tell I’m a tired new mom? I think it shows in this picture, haha!

Friday, December 21, 2012

Hello from Oslo

After a long day in the car we finally reached Oslo and the beautiful Grand Hotel this afternoon. Edward was a true champ the entire time, and only cried a tiny bit when he was sleepy. I must say I didn't feel very classy breastfeeding him in the car parked at different gas stations across the country.

I'm actually quite excited about the hotel, and I'm really glad we upgraded our room because it has a tub and more important it has room for our gigantic piles of crap. Need I say most of our luggage belongs to Edward? I even had a delish cheeseburger from room service. It's probably obvious from my wrighting how tired I am, and it's time for me to give Edward a late night snack and then hopefully get some rest in time for shopping with my mom tomorrow! Nighty night, people!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Babys first time


… time being sick! That’s not a very fun first for the parents. He probably has the same thing as me, so I’m not very worried. We took him to the doctor though, since he’s under 3 months and has a fever. He thinks he’ll get worse before he gets better, but that he’ll be fine. He’s handling it very well, and getting lots of sleep when he’s not getting extra cuddles. I really hope he’s well enough to drive to Oslo on Friday for our christmas celebration!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Winter Essentials

Winter is well upon us, and I’ve had lots of time thinking about what I love wearing in the cold, and more so what I actually need. I think it’s important to have two sets of outerwear so that you can be warm and practical for everyday use (like when I’m out walking with the baby every day) and one pretty outfit so you don’t have to feel like the Michelin man when you’re going out in public. These are my winter essentials for both and I’ve decided that my next christmas I should own all of these. So far I only have the parkas, warm hat and mittens and wool-lined leather gloves. I have winter boots, but of course I would love to have UGGs instead! Remember that parkas and down jackets have to be filled with exactly that, down to be warm, no synthetic filler for me!



Peuterey nylon down jacket with fur collar, Eugenia Kim wool & cashmere blend beanie, Acne canada wool scarf, Storm mittens, UGG classic short shearling boot


Burberry mid-length wool cashmere trench coat, UGG foxley earmuffs, Louis Vuitton Monogram Shawl, Dents cashmere lined gloves, Burberry leather riding boots

Monday, December 17, 2012

Sick kitty

Today’s hello is coming from deep in the sofa. I’ve been sick all weekend, and it seems it’s decided not to leave it with that. I’m definetly feeling much better than I did on Friday, but my head still hurts pretty bad. Hubs told me that when you have a head ache it’s because your brain i swollen. Could that be true? Sounds so scary, the brain is so precious! It definetly feels that way though, and it hurts when I move my eyes so I’m trying to move my entire head instead which is wierd.

I’ve spent the past couple of hours catching up on reality tv and window shopping at Louis Vuitton. Thoughts: ‘Sin City Rulers’ has some of the ugliest ladies I’ve ever seen (both inside and out) and I need a shiny LV Alma and a ‘Gamble’ bracelet. I’m still waiting for the new episodes of ‘Ice Loves Coco’ and ‘Shahs of Sunset’ though.

I really hope to get better soon so I can enjoy my christmas. We’re leaving for Oslo on Friday to visit my family and celebrate christmas eve there, and I really don’t want to be sick then! But for now it’s time to snuggle up and get some food and then probably continue looking at pretty things online that I can’t afford.


Thursday, December 13, 2012

Christmas party


Last night it was the annual christmas party at work, and I had the BEST time! My workplace has six employees at the time (I’m on maternity leave though) and we were all there. The christmas party is for everyone that work in our building, so there were almost 90 people there. We got our own table though, and this was definetly the best time since I’ve started working there. They surprised us with having way more food then usual, and I even got my favorite: christmas sausage! I went berserk and I probably ate 3000 calories! Good thing christmas only comes once a year.

When it came to my make up I decided to stray from my usual catliner and went for a subtle brown smokey eye and nude lip. You can’t really tell from the picture unfortunately, and obviously my lipstick had worn off when I took this picture. I was inspired by the beyond gorgeous Persian Barbie Lilly Ghalichi, who’s always beautiful made up and has the most insane big hair! Wish I could do my hair like her.

Lilly Ghalichi 2

Since my ensemble was all dark (black pencil skirt from ASOS and a blue top with sequin bow from H&M aaaages ago) I went for gold polish and used OPI Goldeneye for the first time. I did three coats and it ended up having a textured foil-effect with a bit of sparkle. Love it! You can see my beautiful fresh water pearl and silver bracelet from Snowbella on Etsy in the picture as well.


Sunday, December 9, 2012

Shopping the stash

The good thing about having so much make-up you have to put parts of it in storage is that you can shop it later on when you’ve forgotten what’s there! I put over half my make-up away in early June, but I’m thinking these might come in handy. This also means I have to put a few things down there, which won’t be a problem because I always use the same products and do the same look (which is flawless, so why change it?).


Friday, December 7, 2012

Beauty wishlist

I kind of want 2013 to be a new beginning for me, and why shouldn’t that start with my face? Having used crazy small amounds of make-up this year, most of my staples are expired and a few are running out. I think it’s time to mix it up and try new products that I’ve heard rave review about. Here’s what I’m hoping santa will bring:


Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Cards galore


My morning has been spent with Edward sleeping in a BabyBjorn wrighting thank you cards for all the beautiful gifts he has gotten since birth. Next: christmas cards!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

It’s christmas!

What a wonderful weekend I’ve had, which was well deserved after a long and tiring week! It’s been all about christmas at home, which is my favorite holiday. I can barely keep myself when it comes to decorating, but I manage to hold out until November 30th and then go crazy! Which in my family is super early.

On Friday I tidied and vaccuumed before putting up decorations and on Saturday we bought a noble fir and decorated it. We took pictures for our christmas card today, and it’s the first year we’re sending one out. Wouldn’t it be a little strange to send out a card with pictures without having a child? I kind of think so.

We also celebrated our 26th monthaversary yesterday with some delicious champagne we got for Edwards birth but never ended up drinking until now. And today I made some traditional, norwegian christmas sausage with potatoes and ‘kålrabistappe’.

I even managed a short trip to the gym yesterday! It’s not only my first work-out since birth, but my first work-out since January because of all my pregnancy problems. I managed about 40 minutes of cardio, which is not that much but I’m super proud of myself and it felt sooooooo good! Can’t wait to go again next Saturday.


Nevermind the vaccuum, Edward just loves the constant humming of it so now I have no excuse not to vaccuum! Speaking of, he’s slowly becoming easier to handle, and I think his colic is slightly improving! I’m so excited to have a baby this christmas, I’ve always thought it seems to nice to have a baby on christmastime.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Instagrams of November

Is it a surprise that November was all about my precious Edward?

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Friday, November 30, 2012

It’s beginning to look alot like christmas

Waking up this morning and finding all the snow outside, I couldn’t help but get that christmas feeling, and having purged myself of stress and bad thoughts last night I felt much better.


So I decided it was time to get out the christmas decorations! I looooove decorating for christmas, I wish it were christmas twice a year! I have a tower of boxes in the cellar, and it looks allot but when I get it all unpacked it looks so sad in our big livingroom. I guess I’ll just have to buy even more decorations next year, oh well! Tomorrow we pick up a christmas tree, which is the best part to decorate. So excited!


Thursday, November 29, 2012

Not feeling so sexy

I made a rather depressing recollection last night, when I remembered that my very much needed next paycheck will only be 75% of my regular pay check because I added my last vacation week for christmas. Of course I had planned for this and set aside money this summer, but I had to spend it on an emergency root canal and totally forgot what the money was really for. I already use half my pay on rent, so now my anything-but-rent budget is halved. As you know I was planning on treating myself to some new gym clothes, as well as a sports bra, a regular bra and I was hoping for a wool coat as well. I also had to get some cheat blouse for christmas, so I don’t have to wear a t-shirt on christmas eve and christmas day (me being Norwegian and hubs being English we’re celebrating both this year). What makes it even more depressing is that the next pay after that is being spent entirely on student loans, so the next time I can buy anything is late Febuary! Atleast I already have all my christmas prezzies, and I have hubs to pay for food and bills.

It may sound shallow, but I was counting on some new clothes would make my self-esteem a tiny bit better, and it’s really at an all time low right now. I guess it has to be when something as silly as not being able to shop can make everything so bleak. But right now I’m so sick of wearing my boyfriends sweat pants not even loosing 20 kilos could make me feel better. But I do think it’s important to dress well in order to feel well, because who feels well when they wear a sad outfit that only makes you look fat and lazy? I’m really not looking forward to doing all christmas parties in the same black blouse which is now to small for my boobs, and I can’t even afford a proper bra to hold those not-so-fun-anymore bags in place (right now I’m wearing H&M sports tops that don’t quite fit). So I guess it’s leggings, sweat pants, t-shirts and my big Michelin-man parkas for another three months. Maybe then can I afford some pants.

It’s not easy trying to be an attractive woman and girlfriend and not just a sad mom. Or cheap.

It sucks that I can be so beyond happy with my life, but so beyond unhappy with my looks.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Home style

I’m so proud of myself, I actually made tomato sauce from scratch today! I’ve been wanting to make more food from scratch for ages, but now that I’m home during the day it’s finally time! The baby still needs me during the day, so I can’t exactly have dinner on the table when hubs gets home yet, but I think we’re getting there! No doubt I want to be the perfect housewife for my family.

I combined two recipes I found online, HERE and HERE, and although it wasn’t perfect, it still tasted quite good. Definetly needs perfecting, but hopefully one day I’ll have my own perfect recipe I can pass down to my children!


Friday, November 23, 2012

Body Issues (you know, those saggy bits)

It’s been over a month since Edward was born, and we all know that means it’s time to start doing something about my body. I’ve been overweight almost my entire life, but I’ve had a few periods in my life where I’ve had a close to normal body which I’ve (atleast in hindsight) been satisfied with. But right now my body is at it’s all time low.

My body was close to perfect when I was 19 and has just moved away from home. Two years later I started hormone medication, which added quite a few pounds over the next year and a half. Add getting pregnant, and now I pretty much hate my body. Today I weighed 83,4 kilos, which is ALLOT for someone of only 157cm. Even though I didn’t gain much weight from fat during my pregnancy, it’s definetly taken it’s toll on my body. My tits are saggier than ever, as is my deflated tummy, and my thighes and arms are way too fat. I’m actually so fat I can’t wear clothes from certain stores, and 95% of my old clothes don’t fit anymore (I only have leggings, hubbys sweatpants, t-shirts, cardigans and one blouse that fit).

So it’s finally time to get back into shape. I have NO excuse anymore. I was about to start working out when I became pregnant, but my first trimester was a nightmare and there was no way that could happend. So as long as I get the OK from my doctor next week I can start working out next Saturday with cardio once a week before christmas. After new year, when I can afford it, I’m planning on going to the gym three times a week for cardio and weights, as well as continuing to go for daily walks with the baby. I’m also breast feeding, which is basically a mini-lipo, haha! I also want to treat myself to some new gym clothes as motivation. It’s easy to forget how important it is to feel good and sexy, even if you’re at the gym!

It’s time to stop hating my body, and hopefully I’ll get results I like without plastic or cosmetic surgery. Unfortunately I have so many stretch marks, there is a possibility the skin on my stomach won’t go back and I’ll end up with a tummy tuck. I already plan on having my breasts fixed, but that’s a few years down the road. I hope to be down to 70 kilo by summer, so I can buy some sexy jeans when I visit London!

My biggest obstacle is still food and sweets. Sometimes I find myself thinking about cookes and candy for ages, and it’s insanely difficult to stop myself from popping into the shop and pick up something sweet and of course a can of Coke (my biggest weakness!). I’m also trying to eat more vegetables, not just for my looks but also for my health. I’ve been really good this week, and only broken down and bought delicious fatty cookies once! Of course I’ll never cut it out completly, but I’ll survive with only allowing it on weekends. I don’t want it to just be another diet, because they always end and then you regain all the weight. It’s lifestyle changes that work in the long haul!

I’m not just doing it for myself anymore, I’m also doing it for my darling Edward. I’m scared shitless he’ll be overweight like I was, and that he’ll get bullied like I was. I don’t want him to be fat and hate himself, but I also want him to be a healthy little boy.

The reason I’m telling you this is because I need company on this journey. Maybe I should check in once a month or something, tell you how it’s coming along? As you already know I want to be 70 kilos by July (I’ll live with 10 kilos lost though), but my goal is to be 60 kilos by the time I get married. The problem is I don’t know when that is yet, so why don’t we just say by summer 2014?


Saturday, November 17, 2012

Those housewives

I’ve found a new obsession; Real Housewives of New Jersey! I’ve been watching Beverly Hills and Miami (Orange County is too boring, and Vancouver is just too crazy) but I always thought NJ was so tacky, but oh how I love it! I’m crazy for Teresa, she is just amazing! My favorite housewife. I love finding a series I love when it’s already been running for years, so now I can have a week long marathon. I just started season two, and I have a feeling I’ll finished with all four seasons by Friday haha!

I definetly think it would be fun to be on some future series of Real Housewives! I like to think I’m not crazy enough though, but deep withing I know I could be table turning after a bottle of wine, haha! Real Housewives of Bergen? Bring it on! Even though it would be the most boring series of all time.


Friday, November 16, 2012

Back to reality

Yesterday, on the 15th of November, baby Edward turned one month old, and I finally joined the world again. It was a happy coincidence that the premiere of Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2 was one minute to midnight (I’m a total Twi-hard!), and when my BFF Martha joined in as well I decided it was time to be just Kaja, not a mommy, and that we should get cocktails before the movie. If you’ve never been pregnant you may think I’m an alcoholic for missing cocktails, but there have been times I was ready to kill for a tasty drink, and I think most new mommies know the feeling.

Having felt super ugly lately, I decided to really make an effort and I did my roots and nails, took time to do my make-up and wore the By Malene Birger blue leopard shirt I got in August. I gotta tell you, after some adult time and a delicious blue cocktail I felt great, and even hot, which I haven’t really since I got pregnant.

However, it didn’t take long before I started missing my little man back home, and when the movie started I was ready to leave I missed him so much! Didn't help that his name was plastered across the screen (it was then and there it actually hit me that he actually has the same name as the main character, not just that they both are named Edward. Sounds crazy right?) and that the first time you see Reneesme she’s about the same size as Edward is now. But I made it through and the memory days previous crankiness was long gone!


Thursday, November 8, 2012

The trouble with babies

How come no one tells you how incredibly hard it is to have a newborn baby? All you ever see is how cute they are, all the downtime you have and how bored parents are when they sleep all day.

It is NOTHING like that. These last weeks have been so tiring I want to cry just thinking about it. I thought getting peed on would be the worst part of having a baby, but that part I don’t even mind anymore. Nights are becoming so long and hazy, I can hardly tell them apart anymore. He gets horrible tummy aches in the evening, and can cry for 6 hours unless he has a boob in his mouth and can drink a few drops every minute to settle his stomach. Nursing in itself is enough work if you ask me, and having him attached for hours on end can break any new mom. Getting up in the middle of the night to feed him every four hours is a nightmare if you ask me, I just wish he would fall asleep before 2 am.

And the amounts of poop! I’m sure he poops more than I do. And pees like a waterfall. I’m sure I can change 15 diapers a day, and sometimes four times in 30 minutes if he’s on a pooping spree.

It’s a good thing he’s so darn cute. I guess that’s why people never tell you about all this, because they forget as soon as the phase is over. I can sit and cry along with him at nights, and he just has to stop for a few seconds and look at me with those big blue eyes and I forget everything. And no matter how insane I’m going every night, sleeping resets everything and the next morning I’m as happy and inlove with him as ever.

I guess that’s how we’re suppost to survive this first time. Thinking about that he’'s not even a month is enough to kill me, but I guess we’ll survive this as well. It’s definetly been taking it’s toll on me, hubs and our relationship, but if other people can make it, and not hate each other either, we can too. Having a baby is definetly not for someone that doesn’t have a rock solid relationship, and I definetly get how so many people break up straight after having a baby.

Between the tough pregnancy, long and painful birth, the state of my body right now and all this, I’m strongly considering not having anymore babies. But we’ll see, I bet all women say that so soon after giving birth. If not I’m thinking mankind wouldn’t survive this long!

But now look at how cute my little Edward James is (we only call him Edward)! His hair looks so red in this picture, and I’m loving it! His skin is terrible at the moment though, all the hormones he gets from me through my milk. But his still gorgeous, acne or not!


Sunday, November 4, 2012

OPI Skyfall


Seeing swatches from the new OPI James Bond Skyfall collection a few weeks back I knew some of those beauties HAD to be mine. So i scowered the internet for good deals and got these four home just before the weekend, and not even paying the regular price for two. It’s been a long time since I’ve been hooked on polishes, but sometimes you just have to! I’m absolutely addicted to red polishes, and it’s not often I find shades I don’t already have. So I got (from the top): Skyfall (cream maroon), Die Another Day (metallic candy apple red), The Spy Who Loved Me (bright red glitter with gold flecks) and Goldeneye (gold glitter).

Die Another Day is by far my favorite, being the perfect candy apple with a slight orange undertone. Gorgeous! It can feel both christmasy and super sexy. I’ve never had any similar shade, and I’m absolutely head-over-heels in love.


Check out Vampy Varnish for swatches of the full collection.

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